Guys school is HARD

I am telling you it is just so overwhelmingly hard that I feel on the brink of tears all the time.

I am still not sure if it is actually hard, or if it is just so much stuff all at the same time that I am just trying to keep up but don't know how to.

I have all of this stuff that I need to do when I get home from school,

but all I want to do is nothing.

I just want a break, but I don't have time for a break.

Like this week for example, I had a quiz in my preventive dentistry class today, a probe test in clinic today(because I failed the first one last week), a midterm for clinic lecture Wednesday, a journal due for clinic lecture due Wednesday, the curved explorer test for clinic on Wednesday, a midterm for tooth morphology on Thursday, a tooth ID quiz for tooth morphology on Thursday, a quiz for Medical Emergencies due by Thursday. OMG. 

Why am I on here when I have all this junk to do?!?

Oh that's right, because if I don't take 5 minutes for myself, I will literally have a mental breakdown.

Last Monday I failed my probe test in clinic. They (as in my instructors) like to say you didn't fail you just weren't "successful" on the first attempt. 

I just know I failed it. And only because I didn't put my pen on a laminated card, when I was charting probe depths. 

Then when I got home I just bawled my eyes out. Because I felt like a serious failure.

And then last Tuesday I got my oral histology test back and I legit failed it. 

And that made me want to cry all day on Tuesday and Wednesday. 

And then I really missed my family and that made me cry even more.

Let's just say it will probably be a miracle if I make it these next two years without some kind of medication.

Sorry for the serious rant. 

But now I might be able to get some stuff done.

Maybe.

Until next time!

One Month

Folks, spring break is over.

This means I have officially been crying buckets.

Not really, but I wanted to.

I hate school.

As I have mentioned before.

So join me as I finish up this last month of school before summer.

Just one month. 

To the day. 

Literally.

I can do this.

It may or may not be the worst month of my life with all of the tests and other work I have to do.

BUT.

I can do this.

I am sure of it.

I keep telling myself that I only need to get C's in my classes.

Which probably isn't a good idea.

But hey, C's get degrees.

Oh P.S. did I tell you that Sam got accepted to the Pharmacy program at ISU.

It all worked out how we wanted.

Unless something goes terribly wrong I have two years of school left.

EVER.

And Chuck has four years.

Yikes he is a freshmen essentially.

Until next time!

Oh the things that I learn

In my attempt to study today, I have successfully avoided it for the majority of the day. I am quite proud of this.

What I am not quite proud of is when I was taking one of my many breaks from studying microbiology is how all of the words of the TV Guide looked like

the words I was attempting to memorize for my test tomorrow. 

I don't want to mix my worlds you know. 

Just kidding.

But I seriously did think that half the TV shows and movie titles 

had the same name as the fungi, bacteria, yeasts and other fun things that I was just studying.

I really hope I don't dream about them tonight.

I always hate when that happens.

Now I will continue to alternate between studying micro, writing my English paper about the homeless and watching Sex and the City.

Until next time!

Studying

Studying: There is almost nothing more that I hate in the whole world.

It takes up all of my free time and pretty much always makes me want to cry.

I also hate writing papers. 

And I have two do this week. 

Along with two tests.

And my dental hygiene interview all day Saturday.

And a test the next Monday.

Will it ever end?

I think not.

At least not for two years.

Will someone please find me a time machine or a way to make some money without an education.

If you have any tips I would LOVE to know!

(one tip would probably to study and just get it over with instead of blogging)

Until next time!

Pocatello

Pocatello is the worst place to live a boisterous city. 

Don't believe me? Check out this photo, taken by yours truly.

Yes folks that is the whole dang place. 

With a whopping population of 54,000, this is the FIFTH largest city in all of Idaho. You have got to be kidding me!

The fifth largest state in New York has three times that many people. 

It's a rough life I am living here in Idaho.

So when you complain about your life and that there is nothing to do where you live, just remember that you could be me, stuck in Pocatello, Idaho for the next FOUR years.

Until next time!

Tears

I am sitting here at work ready to cry my eyes out with boredom. I dislike my job more than words could ever describe, but hey at least I have a job, so I should probably stop complaining. I just wish that it wasn't so boring. Blah. Also, I have been here for almost eleven hours, which adds to my dislike of said job. I want to sleep and to cuddle up on the couch with my handsome husband and just watch a movie together. I pretty much want to be doing anything other than be at work. Only one more hour…..

Until next time!