Guys school is HARD

I am telling you it is just so overwhelmingly hard that I feel on the brink of tears all the time.

I am still not sure if it is actually hard, or if it is just so much stuff all at the same time that I am just trying to keep up but don't know how to.

I have all of this stuff that I need to do when I get home from school,

but all I want to do is nothing.

I just want a break, but I don't have time for a break.

Like this week for example, I had a quiz in my preventive dentistry class today, a probe test in clinic today(because I failed the first one last week), a midterm for clinic lecture Wednesday, a journal due for clinic lecture due Wednesday, the curved explorer test for clinic on Wednesday, a midterm for tooth morphology on Thursday, a tooth ID quiz for tooth morphology on Thursday, a quiz for Medical Emergencies due by Thursday. OMG. 

Why am I on here when I have all this junk to do?!?

Oh that's right, because if I don't take 5 minutes for myself, I will literally have a mental breakdown.

Last Monday I failed my probe test in clinic. They (as in my instructors) like to say you didn't fail you just weren't "successful" on the first attempt. 

I just know I failed it. And only because I didn't put my pen on a laminated card, when I was charting probe depths. 

Then when I got home I just bawled my eyes out. Because I felt like a serious failure.

And then last Tuesday I got my oral histology test back and I legit failed it. 

And that made me want to cry all day on Tuesday and Wednesday. 

And then I really missed my family and that made me cry even more.

Let's just say it will probably be a miracle if I make it these next two years without some kind of medication.

Sorry for the serious rant. 

But now I might be able to get some stuff done.

Maybe.

Until next time!

Friday Favorites

1) Simply the fact that it is Friday should be enough. I made it through this week. Holler

2) I got a 97 on my head and neck anatomy test. My oral histology and embryology grade will probably be another story. As in a 60 would be awesome! He is grading them this weekend so I guess I will find out.

3) Oh hey, it's Friday.

4) Chuck has a big test on Monday that he is studying for, which generally means I can have a little retail therapy without him telling me no. haha

5) Since I don't have a lot of homework this weekend, maybe I will bust out my sewing machine and finish up some projects that I started.

That's all I got. Maybe more things will come to me, but right now I am drawing a blank.

Until next time!

A Very Long Week

Last week was a week straight from hell I tell ya. 

It was long and just exhausting.

All last week end was spent studying my butt off for the three tests that I had last week.

I studied and studied some more for head and neck anatomy. 

That test was on Tuesday and wasn't too bad.

I am sure I did okay.

Then as soon I finished that test, I had to start studying for my tests on Thursday.

Thursday rolls around and I have a quick 10 question quiz in tooth morphology.

I thought this quiz was going to be intense and really hard so I studied for hours. 

However it was really easy I would have been okay studying for like 30 minutes.

Then I went to my tooth morphology lab where we were carving the crown of tooth # nine (think the big teeth in the front on the top).

This is much harder than one thinks. 

We only had 1 hour and 45 minutes to carve it perfectly, grade ourselves and take a tooth identification quiz.

So I start carving that the time goes way too fast and at the end my tooth looks not so good.

So I only got a 79% on it. BOOOOO.

Then I have my oral histology test. 

And that fricker was HARD. Just ridiculous.

I don't really enjoy my professor for that class and he didn't test on the stuff he emphasized in lecture like he said he was.

At this point I am exhausted and want to cry. 

Then Sam and I find out that a good family friend passed away on Wednesday.

Very sad but for the best.

Last year he got in a mule accident and was paralyzed from the neck down.

Then Friday we learn that the funeral was on Saturday. 

So we drove up to Rigby to be able to attend. 

It was a really nice service.

The man that passed away is named Clyde.

And he was really good friends with Sam's dad, Alan.

And Clyde requested that Alan drive him to the cemetery with his horses and wagon. It was very nice. 

It is so sad that he is no longer here but I know that he his no longer in pain and that he is in a better place.

On Saturday after the funeral we went to Rexburg to see Jill and Kegan. 

It's always nice just to get away and not worry about school.

Especially after a terrible week.

Here's to hoping this week is better!

Until next time! 

The end is in sight.

One week and one day until I am done with the semester. It just can't come fast enough. I don't want to do anything. I don't want to study. I don't want to attempt to relearn a bunch of statistics. I just want to not have to worry about school ever again. Even though I only have a week left, I feel like I'm drowning and that it will never come. School is never going to be over. Next semester theoretically should be my last semester, but it's not. I still have 4 semesters after that. Why. I am so sick of school. I just want to do anything else besides school. I need some down right serious motivation to get me through this week. 


Until next time!

Moving....again

Well folks Sam and I moving. AGAIN! I am sick of moving every like 4 months. But hopefully this move will be for the best. Over the summer when we were looking for a place to live in Pocatello we were nervous about not getting a place that we really liked. So we looked pretty much all summer. In the middle of July we came down to Pocatello to look at some of the places. I found two that I really liked, one way more than the other, it was sooo spacious and had two bedrooms and two bathrooms. It wasn't the most up to date place, but it did HAVE A DISHWASHER. But it was like $550 plus utilities. Sam found the place we are living in now, it pretty nice looking, but it is a basement apartment. We only pay $450 and don't pay utilities. There is no dishwasher. There is a family of 6 above us and the kids are quite loud. It wouldn't be so bad if there wasn't an air vent from upstairs right into our bedroom. Also they have a "family" room downstairs right next to our living room and the only thing that separates the apartments is a door. Yep you read that right a door, our landlord didn't finish the wall, she just left a door there. Pretty much from the moment we moved in until now we have wanted to move out. The landlord said a lot of things about the apartment that we complete lies, like the noise. She made a lot of promises that never happened. So we are moving into University housing. We hope that it will be slightly better being back in a complex where when you complain about something it will actually get fixed. In our apartment now, there are like four stairs that you go down to get inside. There is a drain at the bottom so when it rains, that area won't flood and make us walk in water to leave. Well the drain does not work and we told our landlord this about 2 months about. And she still hasn't done anything about it. So when it does rain (which is not often in Idaho) we have try to jump out our door on the the stairs to avoid the three inches of water that accumulate. It has just been an hassle of an apartment and we don't want to deal with it anymore. Also we are really hoping to be in a younger ward with people in similar situations to us. I guess we will see.  


Until next time!

Long Wednesday

Every time I spell out Wednesday, I sound it out in my head Wed-nes-day, I wonder if other people do that as well? I am sure that is how I was told to remember it in elementary school.

Anyways I don't have a bunch of time before I have to leave for class. I dislike Wednesdays for one reason, I have class at 6:30-9:00 at night! It is pretty ridiculous. This is the only time it meets, but I hate that I have to wait all day to have class start. I would rather it be at like noon. Today was a long day. I wrote up four short essays. They were each like 2 pages, so it wasn't too bad, but my brain is now tired and I still have class. Flip. I can hardly wait for the semester to be over. This is my last lecture for Wednesday, and then next week I have my "final" in class. I say final like that because it isn't comprehensive, which I am super duper thankful for. Oh yeah this is a psychology class that I am talking about. And I am currently doing the worst in this class. : ( Blah. I have like a B or B+ in it, but three of the essays that I wrote today were extra credit so I am hoping to at least get an A- out of this class. I guess I will have to own my last test and then just wait and see.

Well now I must dash and catch the bus down to campus. Have a fantabulous night!

Until next time!