Guys school is HARD

I am telling you it is just so overwhelmingly hard that I feel on the brink of tears all the time.

I am still not sure if it is actually hard, or if it is just so much stuff all at the same time that I am just trying to keep up but don't know how to.

I have all of this stuff that I need to do when I get home from school,

but all I want to do is nothing.

I just want a break, but I don't have time for a break.

Like this week for example, I had a quiz in my preventive dentistry class today, a probe test in clinic today(because I failed the first one last week), a midterm for clinic lecture Wednesday, a journal due for clinic lecture due Wednesday, the curved explorer test for clinic on Wednesday, a midterm for tooth morphology on Thursday, a tooth ID quiz for tooth morphology on Thursday, a quiz for Medical Emergencies due by Thursday. OMG. 

Why am I on here when I have all this junk to do?!?

Oh that's right, because if I don't take 5 minutes for myself, I will literally have a mental breakdown.

Last Monday I failed my probe test in clinic. They (as in my instructors) like to say you didn't fail you just weren't "successful" on the first attempt. 

I just know I failed it. And only because I didn't put my pen on a laminated card, when I was charting probe depths. 

Then when I got home I just bawled my eyes out. Because I felt like a serious failure.

And then last Tuesday I got my oral histology test back and I legit failed it. 

And that made me want to cry all day on Tuesday and Wednesday. 

And then I really missed my family and that made me cry even more.

Let's just say it will probably be a miracle if I make it these next two years without some kind of medication.

Sorry for the serious rant. 

But now I might be able to get some stuff done.

Maybe.

Until next time!

Let me tell you about my night

First off I spilled a whole glass of soda on the couch and myself.

I went to get changed and try to soak the soda up off the couch.

While I am doing this Sam goes to get some ice cream and finds it all melted.

He goes to put in on the counter and drops the melted ice cream every where.

All the while little Pippen is running around all over the place.

And then we discover our fridge is broken and everything in the freezer is thawing out.

So I call the manager and she says we can't get a new fridge until tomorrow.

So we can put our food into an empty apartment within the complex.

So we lug all of our food over there

And then we come back home and go running to forget about our problems.

Good times!

Until next time!

Studying

Studying: There is almost nothing more that I hate in the whole world.

It takes up all of my free time and pretty much always makes me want to cry.

I also hate writing papers. 

And I have two do this week. 

Along with two tests.

And my dental hygiene interview all day Saturday.

And a test the next Monday.

Will it ever end?

I think not.

At least not for two years.

Will someone please find me a time machine or a way to make some money without an education.

If you have any tips I would LOVE to know!

(one tip would probably to study and just get it over with instead of blogging)

Until next time!

Pocatello

Pocatello is the worst place to live a boisterous city. 

Don't believe me? Check out this photo, taken by yours truly.

Yes folks that is the whole dang place. 

With a whopping population of 54,000, this is the FIFTH largest city in all of Idaho. You have got to be kidding me!

The fifth largest state in New York has three times that many people. 

It's a rough life I am living here in Idaho.

So when you complain about your life and that there is nothing to do where you live, just remember that you could be me, stuck in Pocatello, Idaho for the next FOUR years.

Until next time!

Skewl

Did I ever mention just how much I don't enjoy school?

Maybe it's not that I don't like it, but just the fact that I am pretty burnt out
on the whole school thing. I mean this is supposed to be
my last semester, but I still have FOUR more left.
Anyway. Enough of that rant. 
Today was the first day of classes. They weren't that awful. 
I was just exhausted. Normally I go to bed at 11 at the latest. 
But since I was on break for the last three weeks, 
my sleeping pattern got all out of whack. 
Today I had an 8am class. Which isn't that awful. But I didn't fall asleep until about 12:30 and woke up at 6:45. So that made for a pretty tired Jenn.
I was only supposed to have three classes today and be done at noon.
But when I came home at noon, I checked my English class out
and realized the school changed the professor for the time that I
signed up for. 
I looked up the new professor on rate my professors and she had horrible reviews. So then I had to quickly find a new professor. 
Turns out the time the new professor had available was 1pm. 
 I gobbled down some lunch and went back to class. YAY.
Good news is, that on Tuesday and Thursday I only have one class. And while it is a three hour lab, it won't be that bad. 
Especially considering the fact that my lab on Thursday only meets every other week. Hallelujah!

Until next time!

The end is in sight.

One week and one day until I am done with the semester. It just can't come fast enough. I don't want to do anything. I don't want to study. I don't want to attempt to relearn a bunch of statistics. I just want to not have to worry about school ever again. Even though I only have a week left, I feel like I'm drowning and that it will never come. School is never going to be over. Next semester theoretically should be my last semester, but it's not. I still have 4 semesters after that. Why. I am so sick of school. I just want to do anything else besides school. I need some down right serious motivation to get me through this week. 


Until next time!

Moving....again

Well folks Sam and I moving. AGAIN! I am sick of moving every like 4 months. But hopefully this move will be for the best. Over the summer when we were looking for a place to live in Pocatello we were nervous about not getting a place that we really liked. So we looked pretty much all summer. In the middle of July we came down to Pocatello to look at some of the places. I found two that I really liked, one way more than the other, it was sooo spacious and had two bedrooms and two bathrooms. It wasn't the most up to date place, but it did HAVE A DISHWASHER. But it was like $550 plus utilities. Sam found the place we are living in now, it pretty nice looking, but it is a basement apartment. We only pay $450 and don't pay utilities. There is no dishwasher. There is a family of 6 above us and the kids are quite loud. It wouldn't be so bad if there wasn't an air vent from upstairs right into our bedroom. Also they have a "family" room downstairs right next to our living room and the only thing that separates the apartments is a door. Yep you read that right a door, our landlord didn't finish the wall, she just left a door there. Pretty much from the moment we moved in until now we have wanted to move out. The landlord said a lot of things about the apartment that we complete lies, like the noise. She made a lot of promises that never happened. So we are moving into University housing. We hope that it will be slightly better being back in a complex where when you complain about something it will actually get fixed. In our apartment now, there are like four stairs that you go down to get inside. There is a drain at the bottom so when it rains, that area won't flood and make us walk in water to leave. Well the drain does not work and we told our landlord this about 2 months about. And she still hasn't done anything about it. So when it does rain (which is not often in Idaho) we have try to jump out our door on the the stairs to avoid the three inches of water that accumulate. It has just been an hassle of an apartment and we don't want to deal with it anymore. Also we are really hoping to be in a younger ward with people in similar situations to us. I guess we will see.  


Until next time!

Some Days

Some days I seriously can't stand people and all of their ridiculous habits. Today was on'e of those days. I woke up at the lovely time of 6:40, showered and got ready for school. Class starts at 8 and we were there at 7:45. Plenty of time to choose a seat that I want. Generally I sit on the edge of the row and put my book bag on the seat next to me, the one closest to the aisle. Sam will sit on the other side of me. I like to have this seat next to me open because the chairs/desks in the classroom that I have anatomy are quite tiny. I'm talking the desks are not even a foot wide. Well class starts and the professor starts going over the test we took on Friday. Twenty or so minutes into class this girl walks in and looks around for a seat. Lo and behold she chooses the seat next to me, with my book bag in it. It would be one thing if she said "hey can I sit here," but no she just sits right down on top on my book bag. I was pretty annoyed. But I moved my book bag and then she precedes to attempt a conversation with me. I just didn't have any of that. So I ignored her because I was trying to pay attention. Next thing I know she has her binder on half of my desk. I was soo annoyed. I just moved it off my desk and made sure she knew that was not okay. I didn't say anything but I had some pretty angry body language. I don't know why, but it just bothered me beyond belief. Ugh thinking about it now makes my blood boil. The moral of the story. I am not putting my book bag in the aisle chair to save it for people who can't bother to show up to class on time.


Well that's end of my rant. Thanks for reading!


Until next time! 

Hmmmmm

Well I know that I said I would be posting some pictures and stuff about my trip to New York, but my camera cord is at Sam's parents (I think/hope, cause it sure isn't here). We are going up there today for a reception so I will try and remember it.

School started on Monday. ISU isn't too bad, it seems like this will be a fairly easy semester. The only tough class that I have is anatomy. And Sam is in that class with me, so we can study together and make sure we know the concepts. I didn't go to class today, I know what you are all thinking, the first week of school and already sluffing, but in my defense, I have had a seriously bad sore throat. And last night I woke up at 1 and couldnt fall back asleep until 4ish. My first class is at 8 so that wasn't really going to work for me. I am glad I didn't go though, because I have been DEAD tired all day. I have literally been in bed all day freezing, even though it's 95 out. The upstairs people run their AC like it's going out of style. We aren't technically supposed to have AC but, there is a vent from upstairs that goes to our bedroom. So only the bedroom gets ridiculously cold.

Well I can hear Sam bringing the garbage can back, so that means he is home.

Until next time!

Tears

I am sitting here at work ready to cry my eyes out with boredom. I dislike my job more than words could ever describe, but hey at least I have a job, so I should probably stop complaining. I just wish that it wasn't so boring. Blah. Also, I have been here for almost eleven hours, which adds to my dislike of said job. I want to sleep and to cuddle up on the couch with my handsome husband and just watch a movie together. I pretty much want to be doing anything other than be at work. Only one more hour…..

Until next time!