Disclaimer

My husband read my post from yesterday and said the end made me sound like I hate my life. 

So I just thought that I would throw a disclaimer out there.

I am very happy with my life and with my marriage.

I love it and wouldn't change it for the world.

I think the post was me admitting to myself and the world that marriage is hard.

And it is okay for it to be hard at times. 

Going through struggles with Sam is truly what makes us stronger and so much closer. 

And I really do mean that. 

We always weather the storm and feel so much closer to each other and stronger in our marriage. 

Until next time!

Frank

Let me be frank with you.

Marriage is one of the hardest things I have ever done.

It is also the most rewarding.

I can't see my life without my husband in it.

But with that being said there are times when things are rough 

and I just have to cry.

It's hard being married at 21. It was even harder being married at 19.

There are times when I mourn for the days of being single and carefree with my friends.

There are times when I just want to be back in New York living with my family.

But then I realize there was no Sam in those moments. 

There was no man that loved me to the deepest levels of my soul.

And whom I love just the same.

Sometimes I think people, especially younger married people in the Mormon community, make marriage out to be a walk in the park.

And honestly sometimes it is. But sometimes there are moments when I just want to scream at my husband.

Sometimes there are moments when I wonder was I truly ready for this. 

Sometimes I am one of those people that make marriage out to be a walk in the park. 

My go to response when people ask me how married life is treating me is to tell them that it is fun.

Sometimes it's so fun to get to spend every day with Sam.

But sometimes it's not so fun.

Some days I just need my own friends and time away from Sam.

I think the biggest difficulty that Sam and I have had in our marriage, apart from living with his parents the first four months (which I would not recommend to anyone), is not having our own friends.

Our own things to do and time away from each other.

Sometimes all I need is just time away from Sam. 

Since we have moved schools and came to ISU, 

we have both had difficulty coming into our own.

It's great to have Sam to go through all of this with, 

but to be frank, I just need some girlfriends! to chat about anything and everything with.

Sometimes I get that with my friends that are at BYU-I. 

And I thirst for more of those moments.

And sometimes I need my family.

The ones that have seen me at my weakest moments and been there for me always.

It is a very hard thing to be the one in a marriage where it's your family that lives far away.

It's incredibly difficult for me at times to only see my family once a year.

I grew up with my ENTIRE family a thirty drive from me.

Now they are all 2000+ miles away.

I'm not saying that I don't like/love my in-laws.

I couldn't have married into a better family.

I constantly laugh because of them and they bring serious joy to my life.

But since I am being frank, Alan is not my dad.

And I love my dad more than words could describe. 

I miss him more than I could ever write.

Alan is an amazing father-in-law and I get to do things with him that I would never do with my own father, which is just awesome.

And Sydney is seriously the best mother-in-law ever.

She is my Momma Syd.

I love her.

I don't have a relationship with my own mother, so she is my mom.

She fills a void in my life. as cheesy as that sounds.

But back to this marriage thing.

It is hard.

It requires a lot of work.

I have cried more times than I would like to admit.

But my marriage is the best thing that I ever happened to me.

Sam was the best decision I ever made.

I love him more than anything in the entire world.

I wouldn't trade this life for anything.

It isn't always an easy life, but sometimes it is the best life ever.

Until next time!

What is love?

Love is when you can ask your husband to take off the shirt he is wearing so you can wear it and he does. The kid would literally give me the shirt off his back. : ) It's a good thing we are the exact same size. In EVERYTHING! ha. Love him to the moon and back. 


Until next time!

Happy Birthday big guy!

It's this guys forty-sixth  birthday. I am so happy that I got to go home and see him and spend some good ol' QT with each other. I don't know where I would be today with out him in my life. He has been there for me through it all and I can't express my gratitude enough. Happy Birthday Dad! I love you!

The Day

So our anniversary has come and gone. It was so nice to spend the whole day with Sam and do whatever we wanted. I loved it. Here is a run down of what we did:

Woke up and shared cards with one another. (I am a big card kind of girl)

Got ready and got some donuts for breakfast. (I am also a huge donut fan)

Headed to the Draper Temple, where we got sealed. We did some sealings. This is the perfect way to spend an anniversary if you can. The man who did the sealings was hilarious.

Came home, changed and went to lunch at Zupas. This is a big deal, because Sam never wants to go there because a guy in our ward told him it was "chick" food. Sam liked it, but agreed that it was "chick" food. I do not know what it is with guys and thinking that they need to gorge themselves every time they eat.

We planned on going to Jump On It. It took us a while to find the flipping place. When we got there, it was pretty crowded, so we headed back home. We were pretty tired at this point, so we just took a nap, which turned into two hours.

We woke up from said nap, decided we were hungry and I talked Sam into letting me order some take out from my favorite Thai restaurant, Spicy Thai. If you are in the Provo area and have not tried this place you seriously should. It is so good. Do not get scared by the name, you get to name your spice.

We ended the night watching some TV. All around it was a perfect day with a perfect husband.

Life is great!

Until next time!

WOAH!

On Saturday Sam and I will have been married for one whole year! It is so crazy to think that it has been that long. It seriously feels like it was just a few days ago that we were married. I have never been happier or had more fun with anyone. Sam is literally the best thing that ever happened to me. I always tell him that he is the best decision I ever made. If you ever read this Charles know that I love you more than words could ever describe. Well enough of the mushy stuff. Here are some pictures from our wedding day. Enjoy!

Until next time!

One year

So this past weekend was one year from Sam's and my first date. It was so nice to get to spend the entire weekend with him and not worry about school or anything. We had so much fun together. It's always hard after spending all weekend long with him, without school or anything, to then have Monday come. On Monday's I have class until 11, but Sam has class all morning long and then again from 5-7. So I usually don't get to see him until after 7.

On Friday we had plans to go to BYU Spectacular with Mindy and Dave, and Dave's dad Dale. BYU Spectacular is something that they only do for homecoming weekend. It was really fun and cool. It is like a bunch of groups from school that put on performances. There is a lot of singing and dancing. But it is way good. Last year it was a couple of weeks later. I think more towards the end of October, instead of the beginning. We went with Mindy and Dave last year also. That was the first time I had met any of his family. We went to dinner at this sweet Italian place called La Dolce Vita. We also went there last year. It is such good food for a pretty reasonable price. After dinner we rushed over to the Marriott for BYU Spectacular. It lasted for about two hours. After wards we went home and watched a movie.

Saturday was the day we were for real celebrating. We started our day out by sleeping in and getting ready for the temple. Sam went to temple on the morning of our date last year, so we did it again. Instead of doing an endowment session, we did initiatory. We got out of the temple at around 12. We headed down to Wal-mart to pick up somethings we needed. I wanted to get some crop pants for rock climbing later. We then went to Tucanos. Last year Sam had gone to Tucanos with some friends and I went to basically the same place, but it's called Rodizio Grill. I actually didn't eat when I went, so this was the first time for me. It was so yummy. I love getting to experience things with Sam for the first time. We ate so much food and were so full after wards. All we wanted to do was curl up and sleep. But alas we couldn't. We had to run back to our apartment and change back in to church clothes and run over to Jen's husbands baptism. We had Sophie, their their 7 month old daughter with us, so Jen could just enjoy the baptism and not have to give all of her focus to Sophie. she was really well behaved. Mostly she just played with these fake keys that she had. In fact she was so well behaved Sam even held her. Towards the end she got pretty fussy because she was hot and tired. I took her into the hall, which was a lot cooler, and she fell right asleep. It was funny to have her with us, because it was a little taste for the future for when Sam and I have our own babies.

After the baptism we went home and just relaxed. We wanted a break before we went rock climbing that night. I remember thinking on our first date ever, when we went rock climbing that Sam must trust me quite a lot to let me belay him. I mean we had only known each other for a little over a month and here he was practically putting his life in my hands. I also put mine in his, but he picked this date. Anyways, back to the future. We left to go at about 7:15. And we got all geared up and had a lot of fun. Sam is way better at it than me. Then again he is better at just about everything than me. What a punk!

On Sunday we had a pretty lazy day. We went to church and got sustained and set apart as Sunday School teachers. We weren't exactly stoked when we were called, but the idea is warming up to us, mainly because we get to team teach. After church we just ate some food, watched movies and enjoyed our time with one another. I love Sam more than I could ever describe and it has been the best year with him. He is one great man.

Until next time!